Sex...

OK. I'll warn you now. Sex is probably going to crop up a fair bit in this blog. I wouldn't go as far as to say I'm a nympho..though I have been called one on a number of occassions.

Hep C will play havoc with your sex life.

Before I knew my partner had Hep, we had a fantastic sex life. Neither of us could get enough. As soon as he admitted he had Hep, things took a turn for the worse. He says that he struggles with the idea of sex as he feels "dirty" by "carrying the virus". It doesn't matter how many times I tell him nothing has changed and I don't feel any different towards him at all, he finds it hard to believe.

Psychological issues aside,  there is also the fact that with Hep C comes fatigue, nausea, loss of libido etc, etc. Mr C (my partner), beats himself up constantly because he feels inadequate. We are lucky if we get to have sex a couple of times a month. Because of this, he is always paranoid that I'll get bored of him and leave him for someone else. This is never going to happen by the way. I love my man more than life itself and he knows that, despite the fact he has trouble accepting it.

I spend a lot more time than I'd care to admit being totally and utterly frustrated. The fact that I feel I can't let my frustration show (for fear of upsetting Mr C) makes matters even worse.

I'm not sure where we go from here. All I can do really is be patient with my partner and hope he gets past this problem somehow. He gets so depressed about our (lack of) sex life. He's joked about Viagra many times, the doctor even told him to watch porn to see if it helps - it doesn't! We'll still watch it anyway..who knows hey?! Until things get back to "normal" I guess I'll just carry on enjoying the limited sex life we do have. It IS limited but the little we do have is GREAT.