I have managed to reclaim the laptop from my partner so am taking this opportunity to tinker with the blog. Consequently, my posts are now slightly jumbled from correcting spelling mistakes...hopefully it will still make sense even though it is no longer in chronological order!
My partners good mood and positivity made it through the entire day which is amazing. As I was getting ready for bed he thanked me. When I asked why he was thanking me he said "for putting up with me and my moods, I know it can't be easy. I love you more than life itself, I never want you to forget that." Despite the ups and downs, the emotional and often physical struggles we endure, my life is all the better for having him in it. I tell him this all the time but I'm not sure how much of that he takes on board! He has very low self esteem and often find it hard to believe that someone 12 years younger than he is could love him (and all his flaws - as he sees them). But to be honest, my partner is hands down the most incredible person I've ever met and every day I'm thankful I have him in my life.
We're hoping to have a nice family weekend. We love to take the kids out and do things as a family which hasn't been happening as much as we would like recently. You never know, we might even take a drive out to the coast and have a nice walk along the beach - the chilly sea breeze should be quite invigorating!! If it's too cold and we finally get enough snow, I've promised the kids we'll go sledging so either way it's win win I guess.
My partner has finally joined an online Hep C support forum. He posted about the overwhelming feeling of helplessness he is struggling with at the moment. He's had a lot of responses from people who have been through the same thing and that alone has lifted his spirits a great deal. Suddenly he doesn't feel so alone. I'm always there for him and I try to support him in every way possible but I only those who are going through / have gone through what he is can offer him that understanding that he craves.
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